And here I am, back with a VENGEANCE.
I started this blog way back in 2014. It started as a hobby, treated it as an online journal. I didn’t share it with anyone at that time. I just needed a platform to write everything I was thinking and feeling.
When I left for South America in 2015, I finally made the decision of publicizing this blog with the hopes of earning money from it eventually because I needed ways to sustain living a life on the road.
When successful bloggers say blogging is hard work and sacrifice, you better believe them. Blogging whilst traveling is even harder. Up until now, I don’t understand how these travel bloggers do it. It’s really not a walk in the park.
In my case, blogging took a back seat whilst I was traveling. There was so much to do and I failed to prioritize my blog. From sightseeing to volunteering, working remotely, hitchhiking, and partying all night, it felt like there wasn’t enough time in a day.
Excuses. I know. Bottomline, I didn’t see the value of spending time on this blog when there are other things that I could be doing and worse, I was just plain lazy.
But I realized now that I should have given more focus to this blog because I had so much stories to tell and pictures to share back then. I guess I will just have to go back and relive all those memories.
Present day. I am back in the Philippines for a year now. Starting my life from scratch.
At 34, I should already have an established career, a family and planning for my retirement but guess what, I don’t have any of those. And weird as it may sound, I am perfectly at peace with it.
Just recently, I found myself hitting rock bottom yet again. For 3 months, I was consuming more than creating, wasting my time in front of the TV or with anything I can find online. I was clueless about what to do with my life. I thought I had it all figured out already by my oh my, almost always, life can and will surprise you.
So there I was, laying on the couch 25 hours a day, feeling frustrated, demotivated and depressed. Had I gone longer in this phase, I know I would have a hard time getting out of this blackhole that sucked the life out of me. Fortunately, with the help of my friends and a lot of thought processing, I was able to recognize and address the problem. Also, these words helped me heaps: PULL YOUR SHIT TOGETHER.
So that’s exactly what I did.
From that moment on, I saw my life as a blank canvass. So I took it as an opportunity to finally create the life that I wanted in my own terms. And that includes taking care of all the responsibilities I neglected when I traveled for 14 months.
The biggest challenge for me was the need to practice PATIENCE. Why? Because I wanted everything to happen NOW. Because I want so bad to get out and travel again but Universe had different plans. I needed to stay put to learn the value of patience and hard work. That if I want things to last, it would take time and no matter how hard I look and analyze, there are really no short cuts.
If you want something so bad, you’ve got to earn it because the life that you want will not be handed to you on a silver platter.
Life is hard and complicated but only if you allow it.
Currently, I have an online job that takes care of my financial needs and obligations, an online business that I hope to become a non-profit organization in the future, and this blog.
I am not going to lie – I want this blog to be income-generating but that’s not my main priority. My goal for this blog is to share my story, my dreams, successes and failures, and show people how I created the life that I wanted and lived the life that I love. I want to inspire people, or even just one human being, that dreams do come true but dreams also mean work, and dreams demand hustle.
It is not going to be easy but it is possible.
Sending you love from my side of the world. And thank you for stopping by.